I'm a bit sad because if I was still at FIDM, I'd be graduating this month. As much as I enjoy working and being with Jeromey (my sweet prince), there are times when I wish I could have at least finished school and received my Associates degree in fashion design. In my past, I have always valued my education and made it top priority. But when I went home, I felt hopeless and had to let it wait. None of my parents wanted to help me further my education because I chose a path they thought was unacceptable.

I guess it was part my choice to go home. But what else could I do? Nobody wanted to help find a way for me to fund my way through school. And when my parents told me to go back home to learn something else, I thought they'd at least help me. But they didn't. I went home and never once was I encouraged to go to school. My mom was a little happy that I had an interest in business. But because of my dad's disinterest in supporting his children and my mom's loyalty to my dad, I couldn't find any help from either.

So now, I sit here in front of my computer wondering to myself what I'd be like if I told my mom I'd stay with my cruel aunt in California and finish my last year. Would I be any happier? There are times when I say to myself, "I probably wouldn't have survived in the fashion industry." But I think I gave up too soon.

As life goes on, I constantly search for the right path. I'm glad I at least have someone who is supporting me now. That person is Jeromey. And I don't know where I'll be in the future. But at least I know who I want to be there with. Hopefully, one day I can go to school to study... whether it'd be fashion design or not... I do not know.